It’s hard to believe that we are already a quarter of the way through 2021, of which minus 4 days has been spent in lockdown. It’s crazy, and just 18 months ago if you were to think of March 2021 you wouldn’t have imagined that walks, working from home and vaccinations would have been the main talking point.

MUSINGS OF 2021

Exactly 9 years to the day I was in a crowded theatre in Ipswich seeing my childhood band – Mcfly – and it was pretty fab. Left school early and headed to Ipswich for a concert. 9 years later Mcfly are still going and wit ha tour for later in 2021, but 2021 and 2012 differ a lot.

I never imagined that my first year of employment after graduation would have been spent working from home in comfy clothes and spending my lunch going on a walk in my local area to break from screen time, but here we are. Prior to January 4 I was in the office, ‘enjoying’ the daily commute on the train and the office environment. Since then and nearly 3 months later I’m still working at home in my nice little routine and probably working harder and longer than what I do in the office, just with a few more let me just scroll through instagram for 5 minutes. I workout in the mornings when I used to be catching a train, I don’t meal prep my lunch or dinner and my alarm is not set for 6am.

Facetimes, Zooms and any other type of video calling has been a huge part of every week. Daily Zoom catch ups at work, FaceTimes with my friends and boyfriend, and my 83 gran now has a tablet so we can Skype her. It’s a strange one, and trust me if I never have to FaceTime again I think I would be quite happy. At the moment its the only form of socialisation we have with the people we are closest too in life.

I miss meals out, and drinks, and exploring (by which I do not mean walking).

My average step count each day has increased, and I’m bored of the same walks whether its near the house or along the seafront. Don’t get me wrong I’m so grateful for living by the sea, but the walk is the same no matter which way you walk when you have done it probably 50 times in a very short space of time.

At 23 I never imagined my Friday and Saturday evenings being spent in the lounge with my parents watching a film on Netflix. Don’t get me wrong some of these moments are moments I will treasure for the rest of my life, but spending nearly 24/7 with my parents is a strain on my mental health.

I now journal and read books when I never had time before, but also probably scroll social media more than ever before.

I miss my friends and having fun outside of the house.

I’m also super anxious about coming out of lockdown. I was overwhelmed about the easing of lockdown and not very optimistic about June 21 happening and life going back to normal when Covid is still out there.

I may have had my first vaccine, and felt utterly shite for the next 24 hours, but I’m still scared about life returning to normal and when that will be.

Three lockdown’s later and will this finally be the last?

*Can’t wait for my 1 second every day not just to be walks and my morning coffee

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